LOL I've had a similar realisation. I once listened to my own recording and OMFG did I always sound this bad? And my voice sounds so dumb too! Now I've come to accept myself as I am. I've tried everything I could find, but in the end, the thing that helps me the most is "relax", not just relaxing on the mental level, but also scanning body parts and relaxing anything that contracts. Then a realisation came one day, it actually doesn't matter whether or not I stutter! It's a change of perspective that didn't come easily, but I was so trapped in my mind for my whole life to realise it.