This internal conflict between two parts of myself is something I’ve been working on a lot lately. For a lot of us, shame is the motivator for both of these things. You want to fix your stutter because subconsciously you feel you will be worthy if so. The same thing with acceptance, we want to self accept because we want to move away from shame. The best thing to work on is the shame/guilt of being who you are. Because using that to fuel either of those things never worked for me, and that was 10 years of ruthlessly attempting to accept myself or fix my stutter. I was trying to push shame away by doing one of the two things above. Shame pushed away often becomes much more challenging emotions further down the line. The quicker you turn to your shame and process it, the easier it will be to move towards whatever goal it is. But more importantly you’ll be motivated by respect and love for yourself rather than motivated from running from shame. I hope this helps someone out there.