“I am a loser. I don’t belong in this perfect world where speaking what one really wants comes effortlessly to everyone but me. If I can’t even communicate my exact thoughts to anyone, if I have to keep my true impressions and ideas and feelings to myself all the time… what is even the point of living like this?” I have these thoughts and many more when I’m at my worse. They dominate my thinking from the time I wake up and sit on the pot to the time I’m lying in the bed trying to fall asleep. I feel my heart sink into my body further and further. I feel if I didn’t have a wife and people depending on me, I might just end it. But also that even this might be an excuse and I don’t have the courage to go through it even if my life was different. Then some time passes… things change - and I wake up with my thoughts preoccupied with how we (me and wife) are going to setup the new tv, what movie marathon should we watch on the new sound system. Thinking about how exciting the blockchain tech is. Wondering about what foods I am going to try when I visit my friend in france. Planning my strategy for the next time I try to complete that mission in age of empires. I look forward to going on the trek in the Black Forest. I feel my inability to communicate is definitely crippling, and only someone with a stutter can truly understand what I go through. But almost no one around me will truly know my struggle. But I guess it’s ok, because I’m sure I don’t truly understand theirs. u/Carebear6590 I don’t claim I understand what you are going through. But me a all the people in this sub have gone though depressing times because of our stutter. It’s a part of your life, **a part**, not all of it. Give it some thought but not all of it. It’s easy to say and easy to read but difficult to practice when so much of the world is designed around vocal communication. We are together in this, I’m happy you shared it with us.