Hey it's okay to be angry and pissed at yourself. It's an honest reaction to an honest problem. All of us want to be normal people but the truth is we're not, and i'm not even talking about our stutter. Because of our stutter, we are WAY stronger than normal people because we've been dealing with it for our entire lives. Normal people have no idea what its like and thus normal people have no idea the amount of strength and courage it takes to jump back into the fray. But we're still here. We've made it this far some way, somehow. That is ALL you. Give yourself credit for the past couple years. All you've ever been is strong. This is just a moment of weakness. And that's totally fuckin' fine. Everyone, stutterer or not, has difficulties in this life. Take it as it is. Process it and let nature take its course. Wallow and brood a bit, get it out of your system and then get back on the horse. I fully believe in processing one's frustrations instead of putting on a fake happy face and grinning and bearing it, but it's how you process it too. It's what you do afterwards that matters. And you've already done it in the past by rising up and conquering time and time again. You are already strong. You are already full of courage and confidence. Years of hard work is still years of hard work. You are strong. Sometimes you just need to remind yourself again. You will feel better. Take care