I beat myself up, tell myself I am never going to achieve my dreams or goals. Act like I am total failure and just negative self-talk myself to sleep. If anyone talked to me the way o talk to myself, I would probably never speak to them again. Then I wake up the next day, make some food of my people, thank the fates for making me me, and show myself some compassion and kindness. I tell myself only good things about me and deposit good things in the bank of self esteem (which I had raided the day before). Sometimes I also buy new shoes.