First of all. It isn't a rant. Your feelings are valid and very common among stutterers. I had a presentation recently and it was a stuttering car crash. I even had a beer before, which sometimes helps. but it didn't. I used to drop half a valium before presentations at university. My speech was smooth like a baby's bum. I don't recommend doing that. some people get hooked on prescription drugs easily. They also affect everyone differently. I only did it those couple of times. I feel like we all have good days when we are fluent and bad days when we are not. When I thought I'm gonna do well, I was wrong. Unlike other times when I think it's gonna be bad and turns out fine. For me as you say its the people who trigger it. So depends on who i'm presenting to, or the size of the group. Even some social settings trigger me too where I talk to multiple people. Have you tried diaphragmatic breathing ? (Diaphragmatic breathing, also known as belly breathing, involves using the diaphragm muscle to facilitate deeper, slower breaths, expanding the abdomen rather than the chest during inhalation.) It works! Public speakers use it too. OR The "4-4 breathing technique," also known as box breathing or square breathing, involves inhaling for a count of four, holding for four, exhaling for four, and holding again for four, repeating this cycle to promote relaxation and focus. The longer you hold your breath the slower your heart rate. it really calms me down. Sometimes I also casually announce that I have a stutter to diffuse all the awkwardness when the stutter hits, which in turn helps me feel more at ease too. How did your presentation go?