It’s not about wanting to fit in…

It’s not about wanting to fit in… It’s the consequences of not fitting in that bother me. It’s the fact that I’ve been unemployed for over 6 months and nobody wants to hire me. It’s the fact that my unemployment checks stop soon, and I won’t have an income after that. It’s the fact that I have 5 years of work experience, but teenagers who’ve never even worked are getting hired over me. It’s the fact that I have no real transferrable skills from previous jobs, because the only tasks my managers thought I could handle is prepping food and cleaning. It’s the fact that whenever I do get a job, my managers and coworkers infantilize me and make me feel stupid. It’s the fact that my hours would always end up getting cut at work, so I would just quit instead of being fired. I fucking hate stuttering, and it’s not because I care what people think about me. I care about how the way people’s perception of me prevent me from progressing in life. I’m not taken as seriously as an adult. I feel like I’m trying so hard, just to constantly be fucked over. I just want the same opportunities to grow as my peers, and I feel so stuck in life because nobody will give me a fair chance… I know some people will say to get a degree or certificate, but I know so many people that didn’t go to college or trade school, and always keep a job. Why should I have to be exceptional to prove that I’m capable…