All jokes aside, I really understand where you are coming from. I firmly believe life is suffering in many ways. However, I think we derive meaning from the suffering we are able to endure. Try envisioning the best possible person you could be within your own fundamental definition. Make this new envisioned person so amazing and fulfilling that all the suffering you will face and endure will be worth it. I hope not to sound condescending, I may have envisioned this person but I am far from it and still struggle regularly with all the baggage that comes along with being a person who stutters. Also, give YOURSELF some praise for enduring it thus far. People who do not stutter have no idea the amount of negative emotions we go through daily. I hope this was somewhat helpful...