Honestly I get how you feel. But I have so many friends now and stuttering isn’t really a issue for me unless I’m actively worried/thinking about it. Im even popular if you put it that way. I’m not trying to bs you, saying it’s this simple, but a lot of issues that you say “stuttering” affects is really more of a mental issue. To me, speech therapies and all that shot don’t really help me. If anything it’s more of a active reminder that I have this which can be a confidence killer. But if you js have confidence in yourself and know that “it’s ok” if you stutter, then it will happen less. If it’s actively on your mind and you expect it, then ofc it’s gonna happen. Just try not to think about it and do whatever you wanna do anyways. Confidence is key, just put yourself out there and don’t care if you stutter. This will not happen overnight ik, it’s easier said than done. But this is what worked for me. It used to be such a problem in my life bcz I hated it and blamed everything on it. But I’ve made some peace with it, not entirely, but I have. And it’s way less of a problem for me than it was and I barely stutter when In person. Online is different bcz I say whatever bullshit I think of, but ppl don’t seem to mind. To tell you smth, it’s you that makes it more of a bigger problem than it actually is. Ppl aren’t gonna rlly care and they will forget. Even if they don’t, who cares Yk. Don’t care for them and go find ppl that remind you there is nothing wrong with you. Make your peace with it and understand it’s okay if you stutter and that you have this. Confidence changes everything. Remember, you can’t change it, so why fight it. Accept it. Just know, if you prepare for failure then failure will happen. Try not to think about it. All love I hope you can find your peace one day 🤞. I even have some of these doubts and insecurities/fears sometimes to tbh. But it barely happens now compared to what it was like. All love ❤️