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I don't have any stuttering problems... or so they think. I almost never stutter around strangers and friends. I do have a tendency to speak too low and too fast due to social anxiety, but I can usually tell when my anxiety is increasing so I can turn to my coping mechanisms before it becomes too awful. I remember clearly when my stuttering started. It was a regular Sunday morning and my parents, sister and I went to church. When I got home I couldn't stop stuttering. It became so bad I oftentimes stopped talking completely to the point of people thinking I was mute because I was afraid my stuttering would ruin my social interactions. Bear in mind I show symptoms of social anxiety and agoraphobia since I was 6. My family called me telling me to stop stuttering but I just couldn't, not until I learned ways to control my anxiety by myself. Everything was fine until 5 months ago. My cousin arrived at 11PM and I got anxious because no one expects visits this time. I got even more nervous when I saw my mom was preparing food. I could see my cousin was looking at me through my peripheral vision and it only increased my anxiety even more as I dislike having to make eye contact. Then I had to ask my mom for a towel. That damn stuttering was back. Now I stutter whenever I have to talk to my mom. It's so frustrating because I thought I had gotten over it. Good news is that whereas I got worse at talking to my mom, I got better talking to other people. I'm in therapy and every session I unlock a memory of one or more traumatic situations involving my mom which might be the cause of my stuttering.