The anxeity when you need to order at somewhere like starbucks. where you need to give your name and the shame when you get a confused look and a look of confusion when you cannot get your words out. Or when people don't know what to do and ask if you forgot you name for the hundredth time and smile and joke that you had a long day for whatever but feel shame and like a child for not being able to do what others can so easiely. Interesting you said ex -stuttered what happened?