This is what life is all about, trying to overcome obstacles. Even if you never succeed you can't ever give up. But I know it's frustrating as hell. People who don't stutter can't relate or understand at all. To them it's funny. We have all been laughed at and mocked. But you said yourself that person wouldn't last a week living your life. So you must be one tough human. Sucks you can't find a decent job but lots of people can't. You gotta focus on the little things that are good. Even if it's just having running water, and electricity. I recommend getting out to nature work on other things learn some new skills, exercise. But props on taking care of your mom I can't imagine how hard that is. I have bad days too, and your not whining your looking for advice and need help, hang in there cause shit doesn't get easier but you can get stronger.