I'm fluent enough that today I went out of my way 4 times today to talk to people I didn't need to talk to. I had a handful of job interviews in the last months, and had no fear about my fluency, had control of my talking, and even cracked a few (lame) jokes. (I start next week as a preschool teacher at a school that that pays much higher than most in the area). When I do get a block, I know how to handle it, and afterward, if I do think about it, I feel powerful (because I went years letting my blocks stop me from having entire conversations). Tonight, I ordered food at a taco bar where the worker serves you. I made eye contact and asked for exactly what I wanted, even asking her to put some lettuce in corner, and go back and add a little more cilantro. In the past, I often sadly ended up with stuff I didn't even want because I just gave up talking. For reference, 2 winters ago, I went for 3 days with broken heat/hot water because I was too scared to call and give my address.