My mid-to-late teens were a trying time for very similar reasons. High school was something I endured and participated in as little as I possibly could. When I graduated, I distinctly remember how pleased I was: it was over. I never had to worry about it again! Of course, I still worried about jobs, relationships, life in general. I don't know what your post-high school plans are, but if you're going to college in the fall, know that it is just *so* much better. Everyone is nicer and more welcoming, professors are generally cooler than teachers, you're much freer to be your own person, do your own thing, and that just builds your confidence. If and when you get a job, if it's around people (or worse, dealing with customers, ugh), it'll be tough at first. But you'd be surprised how quickly you adjust. My last non-remote job was working for my hometown newspaper. I made phone calls regularly. Before getting the job, the thought of doing that, cold-calling people every day, would have been a total dealbreaker. But I did it because I ... just had to. A paycheck is a great motivator, especially when you really need the money. Plus, the more phone calls you make, the less scary they are. Are you in speech therapy? If not, look into it if it's within your means. It will not, I repeat, will not cure your stutter. But you will learn techniques that make talking easier. At the very least, look up some YouTube videos about easy onset and light contact. My no. 1 piece of advice to people who stutter is to realize that it's something you can't change (though again, speech therapy *really* helps), so you oughta focus on the things you *can* change. Lose weight, exercise regularly, cultivate interesting hobbies. Find something you're passionate about, something to live for.