Quick and "fun" little rant about my stutter

Quick and "fun" little rant about my stutter So I've had this stutter for my whole life, no freak accident gave me it or anything (idk if that's how they work). I've just had it my whole life, along with autism and (now I believe) anxiety. And people just kind of treat me differently because of it. I know that's expected, it's human nature, and (mostly) they aren't looking down upon me or anything. But it's just kind of annoying. I know that it's part of what makes me special, and I've legitimately thought about it and I don't even know if I would remove it if I could. Sometimes I get stuck on a word (mostly words that start with a vowel) and I can feel the conversation screech to a halt. I hate it. I hate how people have to hold back just because of me, I hate how people can tease me or just straight up ignore me because I'm stuck on a word. And the worst part is, I don't even know if I hate my stutter or not. In fact, sometimes it's been to my advantage. Like I love to act (and according to my teachers/audience, I'm surprisingly good at it), and when I know my lines, I don't really stutter at all. Or when I make public speeches, or sing (note how all of these require memorization beforehand). Just... I've never really *met* a fellow stutterer before, so I don't really know all the quirks behind it. Now onto the fun stuff that I might add to my comedy bit on stuttering one day, this'll be a bit more lighthearted poking fun at my own disability: It drives me UP THE WALL when my mom's friends or anybody at church will be like: "Well OP, how come you don't stutter when you sing?" Well, Gladys, is that a question you actually want to be answered, or are you gonna jump the conversational plank after the 5th time I get stuck on a 4-syllable word? Sometimes I'll be in an argument with people and I'll make a good point and when everyone is speechless, I'll say "What? Did I stutter?" and most of the time everyone will just be in awe and I've basically won the argument. Unless if it's friends and family, then they'll just go "yeah... ya did" Back when I was younger, I wore a SpeechEasy (it looks like a hearing aid for those who don't know) and so everybody thought I was deaf for a while, so my genius 9-year-old self decided to take it out when people he didn't like approached him Sometimes my stutter will work in reverse, where I say everything I wanna say, but it's like the spacebar in my brain is broken soitalljustcomesoutinoneword. One time, during prayer, I accidentally did that and everybody assumed I was speaking tongues so little did I know I had a whole pile of crying people on top of me That was my little rant about my stutter, feel free to talk to me in the comments! I've never really talked to anybody with a stutter before!