Hey, OP, I know things can feel like absolute shit at the moment, but they won't be that way forever. I have a stutter and have had one since I was a toddler. When I was in high school, I used to hate everything about myself and my life. I genuinely did not believe that I would live past my early 20's. I am now 27 years old and I have a master's degree. I have accomplished things I never thought I could because I was afraid that my stutter would hold me back. I've been in many loving relationships, I have great friends who don't care that I stutter, and most importantly, I love who I am now. I promise that you just need to give it time and things will change.