My new stutter is a blessing and a curse at the same time

My new stutter is a blessing and a curse at the same time I honestly don’t know what happened. I remember being super fluent and outgoing when I was younger and never really thought about talking, as it just came naturally. However, around the age of 17 or 18, I began stumbling on my words and it was all new and confusing to me. Fast forward to today I am 21 years old and my speech has somehow continued to deteriorate over the years and talking feels like a workout for me now because of all the blocks I get. I honestly don’t know what happened and I’ve been trying to accept this being the new version of me but it’s tough. During all this free time we’ve had due to covid 19, I’ve been reflecting on what stuttering has done to my life. I have mixed emotions about it. Yeah I definitely miss the days where I was able to talk effortlessly and life seemed a lot easier in general. But at the same time my new stutter has changed my perspective on life. I no longer take anything for granted. I enjoy all the little things in life and this used to not be the case. Having a stutter has really made me open my eyes on to what to really matters most in life. To sum this little post up, I believe that stuttering can have its positives and negatives. It’s not easy having one, but for me it really changed the way i viewed the world and the people around me in a positive way.