I know that once I break down the barricade and talk to my friends about it, they'll most definitely be fine about because if they arent, then they're not really friends and I shouldn't hang out with them. It's just more a battle that I have to fight within myself to find the courage to talk to people my own age about it. I've known my friends for some time now but we've only recently gotten closer. I assume some people in my School know, but a lot of fluent speakers are not as perceptive as us when it comes to speech because there's comes naturally and they don't have to really analysis, think or worry about their speech so I really don't know. They obviously see me as a good friend, which makes the constant excuses more embarrassing and shameful for me. Thanks for the advice, It's much appreciated, and has definitely made me think I need to work on this area to make me happier and stop letting my speech control my life.