commentr/StutterMay 10, 2021

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I agree that speech techniques are not the answer, I honestly think they can even get in the way. The battle is within our subconscious, not our physical ability to speak. ​ How do you maintain this high self worth; when things go wrong? I can pretend to myself that everything is ok, but when my stutter creates a barrier between what I want from life and reality. It can be so difficulty to recover from. That is massively damaging to someone self worth. That's why I create these internal barriers, to protect myself from disappointment. Its easier to just stick with what is easy, and what works... then to push myself. ​ I know thats a bad mentality, and I am working on getting out of my bubble of comfort. I don't want to be a jobless recluse my entire life, but I also don't want to destroy my mental health by trying to push myself to far. I have done that in the past, I pretended that my stutter wasnt an issue, untill the day where I discovered that actually it is an issue. A massive issue, that is making me miserable. I am happier now, then I was when I was 'progressing' in life... but I know I will eventually regret this stagnation of my ambitions. ​ I hope that one day, I can overcome this bull crap. For me its about small gradual steps, I have accepted that I will never truly overcome stuttering, I am just working on accepting myself.

Themes

Anticipation & AvoidanceEmotional Experience

Subthemes

Hiding & ConcealmentShame & EmbarrassmentHelplessness & Agency