Ill check it out. What is weird is I'll go periods in which I don't have to think about what I say and will speak fluently. But then when my stutter flares up, I literally lose the ability to speak without having to think about what I want to say. What I find is my stutter is extremely mild and I barely stutter even when it flares up. I deal mainly with the unhealthy coping mechanisms that leads to depression such as social avoidance and thinking before speaking. This is what I need help with. I feel like I go through these periods of depersonalization where I totally lose my personality and become a robot. It's not fun because I become self conscious of becoming a robot and become even more of a robot.