Dude. You just described my life. I felt every single word you said. I experienced what you experienced. I get severe speech-blocks like 80% of the time. I have grown very numb and insensitive over the years, all those traumatic embarassments and getting ridiculed by people. All this rendered me to become an introvert, being isolated in my room for the whole time, away from human contact. Like you, I too, greatly fear job interviews. And I can't quite describe how much I f*cking hate f*cking phone calls! And I've never ever been in a relationship because of this :( But bro, everyday I kept on fighting, sucking all those shit up, and I finally finished college. And because of my fear of job interviews and phone calls, it took me nearly two years to land a job. Still, never had a girlfriend tho. Point is, we may be the unluckiest basterds on this planet, but we certainly are the toughest. We may be unlucky most of the time, but there are still things that are meant for us. Sorry for my bad english.