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Rant. I’m so sad. This week has been the worst week of my life. Quite literally. I feel like the universe is against me and nothing is ever going to go right. I feel hopeless. I’ve spent countless days crying— especially today. I lost a $4000+ ear device that was supposed to help reduce the amount of times I stutter/tension/blocks. (Speecheasy) while I was at work (I work retail) because of everything going on, we are required to wear a mask and that caused it to fall out of my ear without me knowing. I didn’t realize until 4 hours later that it was gone. I had just thought that the battery died... I crawled on my hands and knees trying to find it. I’ve cried to my managers asking if they’ve seen ANYTHING like it at all. My eyes are so red from crying so much that they took me off cashier and sent me to go help stock in the back. I feel like a failure. I BEGGED my mom to get me this stuttering device. She picked up extra hours so she can get this device for me. I’ve been stuttering for 10 years now and this was my last hope and now my last hope is gone.. and I don’t know what to do. I’ve looked everywhere. And the best part is, is that we still have to pay it off.. I’m so sad... i can’t afford to get a replacement. I’m supposed to go off to college soon. I just feel like giving up. I need help.