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Speech block hell English isn't my first language I'm 16 and I've been having speech blocks since I was born. It basically ruined my life. It made me terrified of speaking, which eventually became the source of all of my problems. Could write a book about that. Heck, an entire collection. And my life has only just begun, boy oh boy. You would think my speech blocks are at their worse when I'm talking to strangers, but no. They are at their worse when I'm talking to my parents, the closest people to me. Picture that: I can't talk to my parents. The more I am close to someone, the more my speech blocks happen when I'm talking with them. And this is heartbreaking. You're telling me I'm supposed to have a life with this? Good thing I'm introvert, I love being alone. But I can't stop thinking about how speech blocks created my love for loneliness. Does that mean I was always so sad that I stopped feeling it? DId I turned this quiet sadness into a feeling of relief of not having someone to talk to? Is that a *good* thing? I'm not asking for help here, just rambling. I know everyone will be recommending speech therapies and things like that, but I don't feel like doing this rn. I just want to get over school and start living by my own before I try anything