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I can only speak when I am alone I (27/M) create content on TikTok and also YouTube, so I spend a lot of time talking alone in front of a camera. What really confuses me is that in my videos I can see how articulate and how much of a good communicator I am. I must admit I do sometimes slightly stutter in those videos, but I am about 90% fluent. What really sucks is that I cannot be like this when talking to someone face to face lol. I stutter a lot, you would almost think my stutter is more on the severe side. I get blocks and can hardly get a word out. I usually keep my conversations brief and short because stuttering is so exhausting. I wish I could show people in real life how articulate, animated and funny I can be. People in my life have commented on how different I seem on social media. I am a very quiet person in real life and I do not enjoy talking due to my stutter. Most people in my life perceive me as being stupid because of the way I talk. I cannot speak clearly and articulate myself when I am around others. I do believe it is a anxiety issue because when I am alone I am very calm and relaxed. I can also think more clearly. Face to face interactions give me a lot of anxiety and I am constantly worried I am going to mess up. This really sucks if am honest. It is like no one knows the real me.