Hey, I have been right where you are right now. I had the exact same thought process when I was 19 years old, just constantly putting limitations on myself and stopping myself from trying things. I used to think I could never have a job that required speaking or that I would never be able to be in a relationship because of my stutter. I felt like I lost the ability to speak, but the thing is we are the only ones that are putting ourselves into these boxes. We are limiting ourselves by thinking like this. When I met the stuttering community I saw that there were so many people who spoke just like me and were doing the things that I deemed impossible for myself. This helped shatter all the boxes that I was putting myself into. I know it is tough but start looking for the tools to break those barriers man