What did you want to do that you realized you will never be able to do?

What did you want to do that you realized you will never be able to do? Me personally: get into fields like politics or business which I knew I had the capabilities to succeed in besides the stuttering part, Be funny, Be charming or charismatic, Have a good social life(or any at all really), not be anxious, Not to always be sidelined, feel equal, get a meaningful relationship, be happy, appreciate or respect religion spirituality god etc, ever fit in, ever like society or its people. Thats all I can think off right now