postr/StutterMarch 16, 2019

Worst Speech rehearsal.

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Worst Speech rehearsal. Last year I accepted an opportunity to give a speech. I was so excited. I was riding a wave of spontaneous fluency that I thought would last forever. I wrote my speech and have been practicing for weeks for the big day. Anyway, Yesterday morning I had a rehearsal. My slot was at 8:30. I specifically asked to be the first so as not to have time to get anxious. My husband insisted I eat something as well. BTW no one knows I stutter. It is usually mild and manage it well. Anyway, I got there and I thought there would just be 2-3 people. There was like 40 and I had to get miked up and everything. Idk what happened, but when I got up on the stage, my heart started thumping, my ears got really hot and the sea of 40 faces swam before my eyes and I vomited. ALL OVER THE FLOOR OF THE STAGE! In front of 3 deans, 25 student leaders, as well as all the support staff and event planners. I vomited like a kid too, because I wasn't expecting it, I didn't bend forward enough to clear my shoes. So basically it went all down my clothes and shoes. Everyone thinks I have been poisoned and one of the deans gave me his sweater to wear since my blouse and blazer were covered in puke. Idk how I am going to come back from this. This is by far the most embarrassing thing that has ever happened to me. I wanted to cry, scream, die, all at the same time but I was in too much shock. When I came home my husband said thank God it was a just a rehearsal and not the real thing. I felt bad for like 6 hours then my dean sent me a picture of me puking. He said it was pure gold and he wanted to submit it to a photo contest (on campus) and would I give consent. Then I started laughing and realized, they all think I was poisoned. I probably was coz my tummy still hurts. And I didn't stutter! So there. I am back to practicing my speech and today I rehearsed it in a restaurant before breakfast and it went over really really well. I even got a few pointers from this old lady that used to be a teacher. ​

Themes

Anticipation & AvoidanceCauses & VariabilityEmotional Experience

Subthemes

Avoidance & SubstitutionHiding & ConcealmentOverthinking & MonitoringStress & Fight/FlightAnxiety & Social Judgment

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public_speaking