Stuttering is the most humiliating amongst all disabilities

Stuttering is the most humiliating amongst all disabilities Hi, can i vent for a moment? First, my stutter is bad, it’s very bad I can’t make a phone call with a stranger without getting hung up on. I can’t say the simplest things like I don’t want people to hold the door for me because i will be freezing and shutting my eyes for 5 seconds to say thank you and sometimes it doesn’t come out. I feel more comfortable in areas far from my home because i am ruining my social image every time i am forced to have a small talk with a neighbour or a close by store. It makes me appear very socially awkward and dumb or lacking the ability to use basic English. It’s so humiliating and it affects my mental health and my living standards, the way i earn money to survive. And It makes everything harder Now Ive been stuck at a shitty job (ubereats) for 4 years. I spent years applying on jobs when I never made it past the first interview and it’s obvious why I always get rejected. I don’t blame businesses for not wanting someone with terrible communication skills to represent their businesses especially in fast paced industries. And i will add to that not having a proper degree to get a decent job which can be traced back to the high school years when i was on antidepressants because of my stutter, the damage it had accumulated is irreversible Now i am pretty desensitised to people’s reactions to my stutter it doesn’t hurt me but what actually does hurt is the fact that I don’t have friends and that i have to work 10 times harder to get simple things done. We are meant to enjoy life or at least find a meaning but how could i live with such unfairness?And whats the point??