commentr/StutterMarch 20, 2021

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When I was about 7 years old I woke Up and just started stuttering, it’s also around the time my depression and anxiety first started flaring up. The more depressed and anxious I am the more I stutter. I started taking hard drugs at 16 just to make friends ( don’t do this ). Certain drugs like Xanax and alcohol made almost completely go away, other drugs such as coke, adderall, crack, made i so I couldn’t even say hi. Throughout that whole addiction I went through a bunch of bullshit, different cities, dudes with guns, and honestly being a junkie turns you into a liar and a thieve more often than not so I had to be able to project confidence through my voice. Now, at 22, I’m 3 months clean, and people barely even notice it. Now I’m not saying that drugs made my stutter easier to deal with, it was forcing myself into situations that I would of normally avoided had I not been drivin by addiction. You have to force yourself to do thing, calling and ordering food on the phone, talking to a cashier, eye contact in job interviews. And when you stutter during all of that shit you act like you have a 12 inch dick and keep speaking your mind until you’ve said what you need to. I used to get so defeated when I’d stutter in those situations, but I’ve come to realize that how people feel about my stutter isn’t my fucking problem and they can either sit there and listen to me stammer for a minute or fuck off either way I’ll be fine. Hope this helps, and don’t get the wrong idea and accidentally smoke done crack or take some pills to make it go away. Force yourself into situations that flex your voice box

Themes

Causes & VariabilityAnticipation & AvoidanceEmotional Experience

Subthemes

Trauma & PsychologicalAvoidance & SubstitutionHiding & ConcealmentHope & Motivation

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benzodiazepines_anxiolyticsdepressants_alcoholstimulants_prescribed