Do I really want to get rid of my stutter?

Do I really want to get rid of my stutter? Hey everyone! So I have a stutter since i was very young. Don’t even know when it started, so like i’ve been stuttering my whole life basically. I went to many speech therapists as a child and i didn’t get rid of it or even improved, and i can’t really remember why. But the last time i went to a speech therapist was when i started college 5 years ago, and i remember that i wasn’t taking it seriously, wasn’t practicing, wasn’t using the techniques, etc.. Now, i’m a graduate and i started speech therapy again (different therapist). And i practice the techniques with reading but i don’t use them in my conversation and i know in order to improve i have to start using them. I just for some reason can’t. Maybe because people will notice? Maybe because i find those techniques a bit ridiculous? Maybe i don’t wanna get rid of my stutter? I don’t know, it’s hard to explain. My stutter made me face many challenges in my social life and affected my self esteem greatly. But maybe getting rid of it will mean getting rid of a part of myself? It’s been part of my identity since i was a kid and losing it will shift my identity in a way. Does that make sense? At this point i’m rambling. Anyways i don’t know what i’m really expecting out of this post. But it’s good thinking out loud. And if you have opinions on this please feel free to comment.