postr/StutterSeptember 2, 2021

I want to accept stutter as a part of me

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I want to accept stutter as a part of me Hi, please do read if you have time. <3 I've been stuttering since I was a kid. It held me back a lot of times. When I know the answer on my teacher's question, when I was asked to read my essay out loud or read aloud at class, etc. The things that I want to do but never did, was consumed by the fear of judgement by the people around me. Was afraid that they'd throw me a weird and judgemental glance if I stutter or sumn. And I am so, so tired of it holding me back and controlling the shit out of me. So exhausted of crying over it. There's a special someone that quoted me the lines, "Take the hands of what you can't control and get your hands on what you can change". It stirred something inside of me. 'Cause in the years of my existence, I've been trying to control my stutter but it never worked. Trying different techniques here and there but I never felt accomplished. It probably works for some of you though. So, I thought to myself, "Isn't changing my mindset and view over this is much easier than trying to appear and become fluent? Which is a thing that I couldn't control?" I am starting online class soon and it sounds very dreadful in my ears. So, I am trying to make a change and improve my mental thinking in the process. I'm soooo tired of my mind's negativity about stuttering and I wanna change it for the best. :) Do you have a viewpoint about this? Or any tips for me to not care about others too much? Or maybe a quote that you tattooed in your head to get rid of the negativity about stuttering? Any response from you guys will be very much appreciated. Thank you for readinggggg. :D

Themes

Anticipation & AvoidanceEmotional ExperienceIdentity & Disability

Subthemes

Avoidance & SubstitutionOverthinking & MonitoringShame & EmbarrassmentAnxiety & Social JudgmentAuthenticity vs. MaskingAcceptance & Pride