Welcome Eric. I know how you feel and I hope this group helps you feel a bit less alone. I think all of us stutterers go through similar feelings, for what it’s worth. Things that help me are regular exercise, listening to podcasts about stuttering, and honestly this group has helped a lot. Just knowing that there are a llllllot of us out there. Be strong, this will only make you tougher. I’m a 36 year old stutterer and I know it has made me much tougher.