I understand your pain man I have problems with certain letters too and avoid ordering at all unless its on an online app or if the place has a tablet to order from. But good on you for pushing yourself and going out there. I don't joke with my stutter I just try to hide it as much as I can from everyone, I don't know if thats really helping though. And nah I've given up on relationships pretty much every single one of them failed because I was so insecure about my stutter that it caused so many problems. I don't blame them though. And thanks where are you from bro!