Im in the same situation as you, 16yo, wanting to have the complete freedom to express my self as early as I can, losing hope and don't knowing what to do sometimes, I won't accept myself this way because I just can't live this way anymore, I have a speech terapist but it's hard to see progress, life is being hard and I don't know what tf should I do to overpass it and I don't even now if I can overpass it... I just want something to guide me to the right way but it seens impossible