Oh my goodness. I feel all of this that you mentioned. As far back as I can remember, I've dealt with this. Thankfully, being made fun of for my stutter doesn't happen as often as when I was a kid (8-16 yrs old), but it still daunts me in any social situation. One thing that has become worse, I think, is the fast talking I have and the people that talk over me so often because of my stutter. I'm sure all who stutter have similar issues with confidence, self esteem, talking to literally anyone, and meeting new people. I've noticed that with me, its dependent on a particular day. I don't know what triggers it or anything, I'll just wake up one day and I get to work and I'm like, oh ... it's going to be a hard day. Other times I'll forget I even have a stutter. I wish the latter happened more often. There's so much I can get into since I feel like my stuttering has affected every aspect of my life, thoroughly. I don't even know what helps it. It's purely a matter of chance, I guess. I go out of my way to avoid so much because of it and I hate that SO much.