lol, you're a guy almost 100% certain of that man lol. That's a guy problem of "get your shit together, this other person sucks dick for a living" kind of mentality you're not going to be able to shake off of people. You might get some empathy if you're kinda hot, but other than that. Fsshhoooooooooo, you're fucked lol. You get used to it. Or y'know, you die. Good luck man.