I’m 24 now, so not much older, but old enough to be in a different stage of life, and I’ve gotten here while stuttering all the while. First off, you’re not fucked in the head. Social anxiety is normal. Having poor social skills at 17 is normal. Also - you’re often your own worst critic. What you may perceive as having been “weird” or “awkward” or whatever it is that little voice inside you head tells you, probably wasn’t. Secondly, stuttering isn’t a disease. It’s just a speech impediment. It’s just that parts of your brain - most likely Broca’s area - don’t always sync with other parts of your brain, and because you’re dealing with a brain, you get stressed and feel negative emotion because that’s what our brains do if/when we get out of sync. That is normal. You are no more or less because you stutter. I know that because I am no more or less than because I stutter. What helped me is what also helped u/l7eadly - mainly being comfortable with your speech. Don’t try to stop stuttering. Try to stutter more fluently. There are loads of ways to do this, all of which take time and patience. More importantly, work to stop getting frustrated when you do stutter. Most people don’t care that you stutter anyways. I’ve worked my way the professional and social ladders, part of the way up anyways. It can be done, and while you’re focused on your stutter, other people are focussed on whatever they’re worried about. Everyone has a thing. Accept it, be patient, and work hard to grow comfortable. You’ll get there.