yes, several was the wrong word for me to use. i dont speak english as a native language, so these words for indefinite numbers are rather confusing. i talk with two such people, both of which i met here. and i didnt try to say i know what they were going through, if i implied or said it in some way, that was my huge mistake. i just made my comment because i thought i could help a bit in op's situation. i am in no way trying to say i am some all-knowing healer, i just wrote what i, a laic who has to speak a lot in front of audiences, thought might help op. but now i realised that this comment had no place here, so i deleted it. i apologise for the commotion.