I completely understand you, my dude. People need to stop saying "it's gonna be okay" because it's never going to be okay. I am 17 and I am crying like 2-3 times a day. When I see my friends cracking jokes, joking, talking about everything and I just have to sit there with them and I have to listen to them while I can't say anything makes me wanna just fall asleep and never wake up again. I am sick of it. The worst part of stuttering is that I will never have a career I wanted to have when I was a little boy. Goddamn, I can't even work at McDonald's with this condition. It's truly a nightmare and I would never wish this, even to my worst enemy. I would kill myself a long time ago, but I don't want my family to be sad. Just stay strong I guess, because I can't do that.