Bro don’t let this discourage you one bit. It’s gonna happen it comes with having a stutter. But the moment you give up you lose. We have good experiences and bad experiences. We need the bad to truly appreciate the good. The fact that you even consciously pushed yourself is huge don’t take anything from that. Yeah you got “knocked down” a bit but as long as you get back up and I encourage you to try again, you’ll do amazing. I believe in you man.