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Sharing some motivation Love🐦 When I had the quiz score of 11 👇 Everytime in class when the teacher used ask you to call out your quiz answer no matter what the quiz was out of I always got 11. Legitimately felt cursed because that word eleven used to be my worse word to try and say. And everytime I had to call it out I had 3 options. Say 10, or 12, or 11. I'd say: 50% I would changed to 10 20% I would change it to 12 30% stutter severely I was extremely self concious and scared of every emotion that stuttering brings. When it was my turn to speak the word eleven. My throat clenches, my breathes shorten, my eyes drop, my face red, extreme concentration but just as much extreme negative talk in your head. I would use all my force. Physical force but mostly mental force. That's when I realized that the harder I try, the more concentration on my words, the more I push, the harder it pushes back. The worst is that its not just your speech but how you feel about yourself. I then saw the connection that how you feel about yourself is closely connected with how my fluent I was that day. I realized the more carefree, confident, self loving I became, the more I was able to be me, more free. The freer I was, the more I could stutter without embarrassment, without pain, without shame. I took action the emotions that hold your true authentic back. Once I was able to put together I overcame stuttering by learning that true freedom is being who you are with no holding back. Learning to be free of the mental chatter that sabotages you 24/7. Not by forcing words out but by allowing the stutter to happen and take a deeper look at what ways am I not truly free right now. I had to share this. Learning to unpeel 98% of my views towards things that caused repression, I was able to expess true fvcking me and you can to. With no doubt in my mind. You can. You're awesome.