Agreed, sounds like depression, but I'm not a medical doctor. I have been working with a holistic psychiatrist recently. She doesn't do talk therapy, but she had thorough blood work done for me and recommended supplements to take. It's made a huge difference for me. Life doesn't feel so much like a grind anymore. She could also prescribe anti-depressants if needed. Talk therapy can also be really helpful. That's just been my recent journey. There are many options out there. Do your research and find what works for you.