Thanks alot for this post. Really was a roller coaster tbh. I'm glad that you found what u wanted to do and are now comfortable. And for your tip, i agree its all about balls. I can feel that i stutter less at home coz I'm more comfortable and at the same timr i cant utter a word in front of an interviewer or teacher etc. But tbh i dont have the balls rn. I always try to keep up a happy and funny personality in front of everyone. Laughing at everything, sometimes even at the jokes on my stutter. I'm not confident enough to share everything with my friends etc let alone my haters. No one knows how depressed i am except maybe one of my close friend. I've posted stuff here that even my family doesnt know coz I'm afraid too share it. Anyways thanks alot for sharing your story. Really appreciate it.