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I'm not sure how I feel about the term "happy stutter" (for me it's more a non stutterers mindset) and you'll have to give me a better explanation about what you mean by "removing stressors" I'll tell you what has helped me though... First thing was changing the stutterer mindset. I realized that normal speakers do not get caught up on every detail trying to get out words, how to set up the most fluent sentence, etc.I realize they focus on the context of the conversation and what is happening in the present. I used to give myself internal peptalks, like "oh im going to order this sandwich and it looks really good, Im excited about it". I learned later that this is part of mindfulness. Whenever I have those old stuttering pattern thoughts before a conversation (they still exist at times of course because I had exlclusive negative thinking for 25 years), I accept it and let it pass and move on. "Remove", lessen the negative emotions that stuttering has caused me. I was in denial of the amount of fear I had. Fear is a crazy one because it tricks your brain into predicting the future. It's trying to protect you from trauma. Fear tells you that I am going to stutter in tomorrow's class and it's just going to be an awful experience, why don't I just avoid it. A lot of it is catastrophizing. As young adults we create all these irrational mantras for ourself and we are adamant that this is 100% true. I started owning my stutter as opposed to it owning me. I did a lot of different things. Voluntary stuttering, Toastmasters, stuttering support groups, avoidance reduction. There have been ups and downs and some times it's 2 steps back and 1 step forward. It's because it's tough. I have decades of behavior that was engrained in my childhood that I'm trying to reverse. As I'm getting older, and have a family now, I've dealt with more "adult issues" like not having my bank account go to zero, caring for a special needs child, I just realize all this stuttering bullshit just doesn't matter anymore. Like im done with it. I've done a lot of successful things in my life and I stuttered through all of it. There's no reason for me any more to treat it like some wretched disease. It's within me, but no long has power over me.