I am 44 now. 14-23 were the worst years for stuttering for me, every time I spoke words there would be something. I still block and repeat occasionally, but it got a lot better over time... though not without a shit ton of tears, work, self loathing, embarrassment, risk-taking, and more. We couldn't afford therapy when I was a kid, and my parents didn't know what to do. I thought about a silent life with new people, just yeeting all the friends and family who patronized me into the wind and starting over in silence. We feel you. Best of luck as you try to navigate a reality that is different than most people.