I like your thinking. Try not to get too down on the fact that you stutter. It will not solve anything. You need back up. You need someone or something in you or that you can rely on that will help you get your engine going so that you can develop a mental force that will push away your stutter. Do me a favor and try this. Don’t feel down that you stutter. If someone makes fun of the fact that you stutter or displays a feeling of disregard for your personhood. Inside get angry. Use that motivating emotion to make yourself better. I made the mistake for years caring. I say don’t. It can be a gauge of who really has your back and who doesn’t. I know you can do better. :)