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Constant state of agony There's this thing where whenever I get anxious I would get this **butterfly feeling** in my chest and upper stomach, It was pretty rare for me to get these feelings. That "**butterfly feeling"** is now just a void and this is constantly happening 24/7, I'm so used to feeling like shit that the thought of me stuttering leads to pure anger. I turned 18 not too long ago and It feels like I'm counting the years until I inevitably die via old age, illness, accident, etc. My life is literally flashing before my eyes and I'm just watching my peers live their lives fulfillingly Don't give me that "oh you're just 18" shit, people at 18 experience things they will never experience again. What's the difference between me now and me when I'm 20, 25, 30, and so on? my position isn't normal for someone my age, and no amount of reassurance will make me view it as normal. I will keep complaining on this server until I come to a conclusion on what next step to make. ​