I've been in your shoes and for a time I did not speak and I used torn pieces of paper to communicate. I don't know if you are in the states or a foreign country but I would reach out to organizations: Stamily, NSA (National Stuttering Association), CampSay, etc...for support and guidance. I would also Google "Stuttering" and find PWS on YouTube, Instagram and other platforms to see that we have a purpose on this Earth. We are creative, resourceful, courageous and resilient. You have such courage in you that you have no idea of but once you tap into it, your life will change. Take it from a 49 yo, you are going to be fine! I survived darkness and now I am seeing everything in a new light. Reach out.