I completely understand you bro, i am a stutterer myself i am also 23 now, i also can't accept the fact that i have to live like this forever, More importantly i don't want to live like this, Stuttering dues affect your personality, your mental health, and everything pretty much, It makes me so confused about my future and my life ahead, everyday seems like a struggle, All we want is to talk like normal people, is it too much to ask, everytime everyday whenever i want to open my mouth to say something there is a fear of stuttering, Life is not worth it, When you can't say what you want to say, how you want to say, You can't fully express yourself in a normal way, Just know that we all understand with you, Sometimes it's better to express your emotions then to say silent about it,