It’s no wonder you have insomnia with all the feelings you’ve expressed in this post. What I’m about to say isn’t by any means an easy or quick fix, but it’s just a suggestion to try to take into yourself and consider — Believe in human kindness. Believe that there are people who will want to be your friend, who won’t care about your stutter. If people are “looking at you”, believe that it’s out of curiosity and interest, not cruelty or judgement. Right now you’re doing everyone at your school the massive disservice of thinking they’re all assholes. You’re coming in with this attitude that says “you all hate me because I stutter, you’re all looking at me weirdly.” When you’re coming in with that kind of negative energy, why would anyone want to approach you? You’ve already decided they are bad people, before you even met them! It’s incredibly difficult to be the new person at a school, even more so because of stuttering. There’s no getting around that. It’s like jumping into cold water— you have to get through the really bad part at the beginning before you get to the part that’s comfortable. Try going in with an open heart. The people at school are human, just like you. They want to be loved, just like you. There are some kids there who don’t have any friends either and would love to be your friend. Don’t assume they’re monsters who will hate you because you stutter. If you saw someone in a wheelchair, how would feel if they just assumed you don’t want to talk to them because they’re in a wheelchair?